Wednesday, April 9, 2014

They Thought We Were Cute, General Conference, & Just Coasting Along

Me, Dan, and Scott. Dan is out, Scott is straight. The others present (not pictured) are either deeply in the closet or out to select people.
So I walk into a hip college hangout dessert place, The Chocolate, with a bunch of guys. All of us gay (except one, but whatever), and all of us Mormon, living the standards of the Church. We regularly find ourselves out and about eating dinner, eating dessert, going running, playing racquetball, and the suchlike. As we were walking in we passed a group of girls who were headed out. One of them said, "Hey look, a group of just guys! Are you really just a group of guys? That's so awesome!" Scott indirectly responded, chuckling, "If you only knew." The girls proceeded past us where I followed in the rear of my group of friends. Just as I was passing the last girl in their group I muttered, "We're all gay." A slow, yet steady laughter began to grow within them. "That's even cuter!" yelled one of the girls.

I always get a kick out of that sort of thing.

I just ran the Hollywood Half-Marathon this past Saturday. It was epic. I ran really well, the weather was beautiful, and Hollywood was actually peaceful with all of the roads closed. The race started at 6:00 am, so my sister Jolie and I woke up at 2:45 am hahaha! After the race we walked around a bit, went to Ripley's Believe it or Not, and then we went home and watched General Conference! Could the day have gotten any better?! I love my random getaways to California to run races with my sister. It's like the best bonding ever.
Watching General Conference after the Hollywood-Half Marathon
Watching General Conference was bliss. The weather called for the doors and windows to be open, allowing the cute dogs to run to and fro. Being sore after a race one just wants to lay on a bed, so we did, all while watching general conference.

Elder Anderson has already been a hero of mine. He reaffirmed that this conference. We regularly are reminded of the church opposing gay marriage (and I stand by that), but what about those of us who are are gay and living faithfully? Elder Anderson gives us shout outs more than anyone else :)

The race began at the Chinese Theater in Hollywood.
Here I am giving you some Asian peace.
My race time was 1 hour 32 minutes 40 seconds, so my average pace was 7:04. It's my second fastest half-marathon time. I run with negative splits, so my mile time gets faster and faster as the race goes on. Maybe it was the elevation change, but I was passing people the entire race. I was pleasantly surprised.

This was after the race, so we were a bit tired.
Jolie and I became plumbers for a day. We had to make two trips to Home Depot and watch YouTube tutorials. Because Jolie lives in a guest house, we had to coordinate when we could turn off the house's water so that we didn't bother the people living in the main part of the house. Jolie and I aren't very strong, so we had to call over Jolie's fun home teacher Pedro to help us crank something. He did it instantly. We laughed. In the end Jolie could use her small dishwasher again. Hooray!

Well, I'm kind of just coasting through my last bit of school; just jumping through some last hoops. I'm enjoying this last bit of time in Utah, though I'm very excited to begin this next chapter of my life. What's in store? What's in store? I've never known, and that keeps things interesting.

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Song Fail & Still Gay (countering yesterdays April Fools claim :) )


Hello :)

I've been putting a lot of time into a new song. It's catchy, and the lyrics are very personal. It's upbeat, dynamic, and it's a feel good song. Though I cannot, for the life of me, make it sound good. It's been a bit discouraging. I think this song sounds terrible because I'm still very inexperienced as a producer and I just don't have what it takes to produce a big sounding, upbeat song...yet. I guess for the time being I'll stick to a softer sound. This song will be put on the back burner for now.

I made an animated gif! My first one :)
My April Fools joke picture [Jimmy Hales]

I've already been thinking up another song. It's a softer sound, but happy. This song is going to be a giant metaphor.

Here you see my April Fools joke. I posted it around social media and people just chuckled. I had a friend say, "Hahaha of all the April Foolses I've seen today this was the least believable".

That makes sense. I really wasn't going for foolery.

Basically other than my song falling on it's face, nothing terribly exciting has happened as of late. I'm working on three big projects right now, so I'm plenty busy, but I often struggle with knowing which one of the projects I should work on. It's a work in progress.

I really need to start forcing myself to wake up early and just do some work. I don't have class everyday, but even on days I do have class I still don't need to get up early. I'm way more productive in the mornings than I am at night. Imagine that! I do love a good morning run though :) Speaking of which, I'll be running the Hollywood Half-Marathon this weekend with my sister Jolie. I'm stoked!

I've recently discovered the joy of panoramic selfies.
A panoramic selfie of me (Jimmy Hales) in my English class at BYU.
That's pretty much it. I hope I to get a song up soon on my YouTube channel. I think I'll go work on one now.

Saturday, March 15, 2014

At Least 10% of the Students in My Classes at BYU Are Gay

How do I know this?

These are parameters, not statistics.

I came out just over a year ago (see this video), and as a result of such, I've had many people confide in me that they experience same-gender attraction. Therefore, I've discovered at least 10% of the students in every one of my classes since then (except one class I'm unsure of) have been gay.

Many of them are married. Many haven't even told their family members other than their spouse. In fact, the majority of these gay students in my classes aren't even "out".

I take a lot of computer classes, and even 10+% of those classes are gay. This tends to go against stereotypes. The majority of my classes are 90% male, and males are generally the one's who choose to confide in me. Some girls do, but not as often, hence that "one class" mentioned above that I'm unsure of. That class is full of mostly girls.

Gay people. We walk among you.

Like Canadians :)

Speaking of gay people! 
Carson Tueller!
Jimmy Hales & Carson Tueller
Carson and I met when I was 14 years old. We lived in the same neighborhood and went to church together and all that fun stuff. He came out to me (and then everyone) this past year. This past December Carson was in a trampoline accident and as a result is now paralyzed from the chest down. I am completely devastated. Carson, quite literally, is one of the most incredible people I've ever met. I would have said the same about him even before the accident.

There will be a 5k run (and other activities, which you can learn about here) to help raise money to cover the costs of Carson's recovery. He also has an incredible blog.

Carson Tueller -- What a stud.

Music Update:
I'm just finishing up writing another song. I like this one. It's happy. The tone of my music is finally catching up to where I am. I hope to release it this month, but it'll probably be next month to be honest.

Monday, February 24, 2014

I Documented Myself Running A Half-Marathon (video) -- Now You Can See Why Running Races Is Fun!

Well, I enjoy running. But even if I didn't, I know I'd still love running races with friends and family. Allow me to explain:

First of all, previously my family wasn't a running family by any means. This whole, "let's start running as a family a few times a year" thing is so incredibly random. I'm incredibly glad it happened, because it's extremely fun and it truly brings us closer together.

5ks, 10ks, and half-marathons are so so fun to be part of. Now, it's much more fun to actually run in these races, but even going as a spectator can be fun if you're cheering your friends on. The atmosphere at a race is filled with positive energy between all those who attend. Spectators stand on the side and cheer you on with heart despite them having no idea who you are. If your pace suddenly slows mid race, then those who pass you will cheer you on, motivating you to keep going. Everyone wants you to succeed!

If you're afraid to run a race, or fear people will laugh at you for walking almost the entire thing, you are terribly mistaken. So many people do that, and everyone cheers such people on with genuine feeling behind it. First time racers are always surprised at how motivating the race actually is.

This past year at the Salt Lake Marathon, the weather was pretty rainy and cold. The year before that the weather was ridiculously hot. Either way, the races were great. The weather can't impede on the awesomeness of a race. Though, after the race this past year I was ill prepared in that I had no jacket to warm me. But other than that it was great!

Pre Race
Just starting off!
Mile 2
Mile 4
Mile 11

This is actually my slowest half-marathon I've run to date. I didn't train for it, so I guess it makes sense.

The race will usually put on an expo the day before (Salt Lake City Marathon always has an expo). At the expo you can purchase fun running things like energy goo that you eat during a race to maintain energy, running shoes, cool glowy things, running socks that don't have cotton in them thus preventing blisters, and basically anything running related. It's also the time you pick up your running bib. It's a fun thing to attend with friends and/or family.

My family and me at the expo. The Salt Lake Marathon was the first big marathon after the Boston Marathon tragedy. We ran in their honor.
Here's a picture of us after the race. My sister Christy actually wore the garbage back the entire race haha! It rained the entire time.

Another thing to be aware of is the race will hire a company to take professional pictures of you running. My sister Christy had to hold up her garbage bag when running passed a photography in order to expose her runners number which is how they sort the photos post race. I didn't purchase any of them for this race, but here's one from the Halloween Half I ran October, 2013.

And here's one from the Disney Half-Marathon.
I'm wearing the same shirt in both of those pictures. Meh.

Anyways, running a race is a lot of fun and quite the memorable experience. I strongly encourage you to register for a race and then run it. It's always fun to have a race to look forward to and to motivate you to go running. If you sign up with a friend or two, or five, then it'll be even more fun.

Come run Salt Lake!

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

I Came Out a Year Ago Today!

see the original video here

A time to reflect.

I feel like Abraham while on his journey to sacrifice Isaac. I imagine he had thought's similar to, 

"This just doesn't make sense."

It was his faith that caused him to act contrary to logic, intuition, and what he knew to be a commandment of God.

And so it is with me.

Writing a song for YouTube :)
I graduate soon.

In fact, not only will I graduate, but I will be leaving Utah. I already have a job lined up and am excited beyond words. A new chapter of my life is about to begin, only this one will be based in a setting of clarity that's void of those uncertainties which previously exhausted a large part of who I am. But like all hardships, I'm now stronger than ever before. I'm happier than ever before.

I need puppies.

Monday, January 27, 2014

A Small Favor Asked to Mormons by Mormons Who Experience Same-Sex Attraction

Me riding the Seattle Great Wheel.
My name is Jimmy and I'm a Mormon who experiences same-sex attraction. I came out (of the closet) in this video on YouTube just short of a year ago. I'm a faithful Mormon who plans on remaining single, celibate, and happy. If I marry a woman somewhere down the road, that's great. If I stay single, that's great.

I intentionally avoid discussing the topic of gay marriage on my blog, and that's not about to change. Hopefully my above listed plans for the future denote my thoughts about it.

I know many of my LDS friends post articles on social media in order to share their views on gay marriage. I love that people are doing this; it's a conversation we need to be having! Though, with some of my friends that post such articles, I feel the topic of gay marriage has become a sort of scapegoat.

My friends who frequently post articles that aren't in support of gay marriage, well, I fail to see any effort put forth by these friends to make LDS members who experience SSA feel welcome, let alone acknowledge our existence. While I won't have to disagree with something they post necessarily, such posts of theirs can really hurt. I can't help but feel their their strong feelings against gay marriage bleed over into how they feel about me. "Surely this isn't their intention." you say. I believe you're right, for the most part. But that doesn't change that their actions can be less than inviting.

A frame taken from my coming out video.
While such posts aren't intended to come off as homophobic, many of them can be. If these great friends of mine had the slightest idea of the hardships those of us who experience SSA have gone through and are going through, I know they would be more sensitive about their posts. Which goes to show, and I don't like saying this, how little thought they seem to have put into those in my same situation.

I really am trying hard to raise awareness and "Use boldness, but not overbearance;", yet when I pray and ask for guidance and direction, especially when I so often witness hurtful actions towards my dear gay LDS brothers and sisters, I often feel to hold my tongue. I sense I just need to be patient. But for the time being, maybe a little help?

Monday, January 20, 2014

Writer's Block

I'm not sure what it is, but I've been having a really hard time being creative these past few weeks. I feel that up until now, I've written and produced my share of melancholy gay Mormon themed songs. I'd like to move on and show everyone more of who I really am. But what am I going to write about? Love songs are out of the questions. That leaves_______???

At one point I seriously considered writing a song about trees. Like, seriously. That's how bad this writer's block has been.

I love writing and recording. Producing/mixing is still a bit stressful because that's where I believe the most difficult part of creating a song lies, and I'm still quite a novice producer. We've all heard a not-so-good song that, when redone by another artist, sounds amazing. Producing/mixing can do just that. I have a great song in my head right now, but I just can't make it sound good.

Below are some random clips of us (mostly of Adam) goofing off during some of the recording sessions we've had.

I would love to have some people jump in and participate with all of this stuff. The thing is, these people need to want to participate. I have many great friends who are willing to help because they are kind people and are happy to help, but unless they're passionate about it, making videos/music tends to be more work than play. Any takers?